What about those months where you didn't do any of the things you wanted to do and feel like you didn't accomplish shit? Hello June, Gemini season. I've felt shifty and chaotic, been unmotivated and lethargic, but also impatient and searching. Lovely combo.

First of all, this month I've tried to find a system/routines/rituals that will cover a bare minimum of taking care of myself and my home when my energy is low. I tend to plan my months, weeks and days when I'm feeling motivated, ignoring that I probably will have a couple (or a lot) of bad days here and there. Small things like drinking a bottle of water when I wake up, put on a timer and clean for ten minutes when I come home, writing three things in my gratitude journal when I go to bed. I don't have to put feeling into it, as long as I do it.

So, here's a list of all the things I wanted to do for myself, but didn't.

Become one strong bitch

I've followed a strength program for the last three months, and as I'm moving back to hypertrophy I wanted to see if I've gotten any stronger. This testing day landed on my worst PMS day and I didn't manage to do any of my planned lifts. It sucked. So no new ticked off checkboxes here. (I'm still a strong bitch, tho.)

Do two basic back-end projects

There .. has been a change of programming plans. Again. Last month I tried to get myself hyped for Node.js, but after realising that 1) I'm sick of JavaScript, and 2) I don't really know if I like JavaScript as a language in the first place, I've started learning Python. So far, it's bomb. I'm enjoying both learning it and using it way more that JS, and I hope that it continues to feel this good for a while.

I've created an app with Python, Flask, Postgres and Sqlalchemy. And I've done multiple small challenges with both vanilla Python and Flask, and some cryptography. I have the habit of putting everything I do on GitHub (but most of my bigger things are private repos), so I have a lot of basic things there I use for reference and some things I've started that don't work/I didn't finish. But if you're interested in having a look, you can find me here.

Read two books

I started reading Megan (@bodyposipanda) Crabbe's book "Body Positive Power", and it's just too important and too good for me to rush through. I've decided to really work with the information the book gives me, and after three weeks and not even half done with it. 

Be a nerd

This I've done! I've been a DM for two D&D sessions, and it was a lot more fun than I'd expect. I've also put a lot of work into two 5e characters that I'm excited to play more in the future. This was important to me, as I haven't been my most creative self lately, and, you know, trying out new things is cool.